Confronting Yourself - Part 3 of 3

Probably the most difficult person I have to confront is me. If I am an expert at anything it is in the area of self deception. I can talk myself into something I shouldn’t do, and I can talk myself out of something I should do. I can avoid and procrastinate. Whether it means staying so busy I don’t take the time to reflect, or I numb out by mindless things and habits. I have learned to steer or deflect conversations so that certain heart issues won’t come up. I take no pride in saying this because these are not traits of the Jesus I follow but instead the enemy that I resist.

Jesus was a master of staying on course. In John 8:28-29 Jesus said, "When you have lifted up the Son of Man, then you will know that I am [the one I claim to be] and that I do nothing on my own but speak just what the Father has taught me. The one who sent me is with me; he has not left me alone, for I always do what pleases him." Jesus followed his Father unwaveringly. He also took regular times to escape the noise of life so that he could reflect and interact with his Father. There was no avoidance or numbing out.

Lately, I have been asking myself some tough questions. Questions like, how am I following Jesus? What kind of leader am I? Am I still dreaming BIG? What kind of husband am I? Am I working at serving Michelle? Am I working hard enough at romance? How am I taking care of my body? Am I being a faithful steward with my resources? Does my staff have all the resources they need to succeed? Do we have the organizational systems in place for Fellowship to go to the next level?

What do you need to confront yourself about? What tough questions are you asking? What areas do you avoid? Remember this; even in self-confrontation you should still speak the truth in love. Balance is such a tough thing in this area, but just because it’s tough doesn’t mean it should be avoided.